Different Emotions

angry and mad i sit alone

on a desert land near a shore

trickles down the rain

or is it my blood that flows

wind blows me away

or is it you trying to take my place

 

it was joy when you loved me

it was pain when you left me

it was death when you came back to me

i was lost when you left again

 

i try to bite and crawl

to reach my unknown destination

i fight and laugh with bitter tears

and hide them for your sake

loved someone and everyone

but i seem to scare them away

 

it was joy when you loved me

it was pain when you left me

it was death when you came back to me

i was lost when you left again

 

why don’t i feel the tears of rejection

instead angry i am with my own reflection

they came and went by themselves

but my mind still plays its spiteful games

none can hold me close for i don’t let them

none can see me cry for i don’t shed them anymore

Butterfly

torn and mutilated from all sides of life

holding to the last thread is difficult

passengers pass by to the dreams they only dreamt

but never realized never felt the agony if they break

 

butterflies die with each strong wind that passes

times kill as memories starts to creep in

but life’s donjons opens up  in the strangest of time

and flowers also blossom in the coldest of nights

 

the thin wire is laid for you to cross to the other side

the breeze they grow stronger as you take your first step

but just before you take the last either the wire breaks

or the breeze sweeps you over but at least the gesture was made

 

for eyes so big that swallows the sea

for beauty that you behold in your lips

don’t let the cast crash below

for the soul inside is fragile

hold your breath just a little more

for you die choking or you survive

and flap those wings in difficult times

fly over butterfly to your wild desires

 

fly hard fly fast but never fight when the winds change to directions unknown

for the life is in the free flight not in distance covered or miles lost behind.

Unsaid

when we started when we ended

life is to short to realize

hard rain falls

making some laugh and some cry

as the clouds pass by in your eyes

 

hold on to the hands which belongs

to some known yet unknown

who doesn’t ask for more

who never makes the tears feel real

 

grief is yours anger is his to share

eyes remain wet bodies still warm

life keeps changing hollowness achieved

darkness wished but lights remain turned on

pages crossed for him but who reads it first

he who forms illusions in his head

those illusions you want to live in

he tries to forget whatever was meant

for no one opens up

the door is still locked tight

 

you know what eyes say while blinking

what gestures shout while touched in secret

then why this wall exists where silence rules

alone the days passed in arms not in embrace

nights passed laughing with no tears to shed

 

should the step be taken forward

should it fall back

or should hearts remain

uncovered forever.

Way she flirts

got out of my house

i walked down the street

saw some pretty face

that made me feel at ease

 

it was morning

it was noon

it was late late night

i still waited for you

 

i cant hear myself

in the crowded street

cant see no more

what is good for me

but i still move on

just to catch your breeze

 

the way you flirt

the way you kill

the way hurt me

you make me feel weak

 

way your motion

sets me free

but it just an illusion

that i didn’t foresee

Blank

blank i stare

the lights still blinking

but they don’t hit the right chords

fails to compliment the right mood

 

how difficult is it

to stay calm and silent

hiding the frustration of a lonely heart

measure the weight before carrying

 

how the winds

have changed its course

swept by breeze in sudden motion

still vacuum prevails in stillness

 

love once held

so close so near so dear

paused going to be stopped forever

wouldn’t rise even if the body falls dead.