I Confess

Been loving and living since the day

you gave birth to this imbecile

fucked up my life the life that you had graced

why do you stare straight inside my heart

if you have to say yes or no

speak to me straight on my face

but you can't

its been five months since you're dead

i cant take it anymore

the demons inside play the wicked games

that you never showed you never trained

the tears that i shed were lost in abyss

the blood that got wasted still stinks

i breath them every night in my dreams

you left when i needed the help

i gathered my strength

i lost the game again

my eyes are drenched again

is that breaking your heart again

cause mine is broke already

and i don't know how to hide the shame

people left thank god i didn't

but i will leave soon

the curtains about to fall in the end

i will die and see the world spin

i will cry when i see the sky break

i blame you i blame myself

i have been burning inside

i lied and there is no way to repent

cause you are gone so will i

there is a song in the loop

i am four years old again

things went wrong

i am sorry i couldn't help

i am sorry i showed anger

i should have understood

so should you but you're gone

floating silently down the brook