Broken Tune

you left

halfway down the hall
singing your favorite song

you never looked back

if it is

you cant trust me

darling wont you be with me

just to find out

love is hard love is cold

love is like a broken tune

we all sing it every night

for the young and the old

we will die all alone

in my dreams

i feel your touch

my body aches with your lust

but the looks have changed

still we try

failing for our own vice

your eyes are now dried

dont say goodbye

love is hard love is cold

love is like a broken tune

we all sing it every night

for the young and the old

we will die all alone

I Confess

Been loving and living since the day

you gave birth to this imbecile

fucked up my life the life that you had graced

why do you stare straight inside my heart

if you have to say yes or no

speak to me straight on my face

but you can't

its been five months since you're dead

i cant take it anymore

the demons inside play the wicked games

that you never showed you never trained

the tears that i shed were lost in abyss

the blood that got wasted still stinks

i breath them every night in my dreams

you left when i needed the help

i gathered my strength

i lost the game again

my eyes are drenched again

is that breaking your heart again

cause mine is broke already

and i don't know how to hide the shame

people left thank god i didn't

but i will leave soon

the curtains about to fall in the end

i will die and see the world spin

i will cry when i see the sky break

i blame you i blame myself

i have been burning inside

i lied and there is no way to repent

cause you are gone so will i

there is a song in the loop

i am four years old again

things went wrong

i am sorry i couldn't help

i am sorry i showed anger

i should have understood

so should you but you're gone

floating silently down the brook

F***** Up

this song is all about

how many stars

the censorship gave

this love is all about

how many stars

we can count till the end

this pain is all about

how many times

the stars played the game

i don't know what to do

you keep coming back

your faces all made up

with varied range of make up

we had a wild breakup

but we should know where to end

the stars they keep shining

the moods they keep changing

there's a desolation in your eyes

that tells me i should be leaving

the stars they shine they fall they break

they make you look hungry

they make me feel frail

within the clouds i know you shine

all alone and fucked up

this song is all about

how many stars

the censorship gave

this love is all about

how many stars

we can count till the end

this pain is all about

how many times

the stars played the game

Casanova

Casanova died two years ago

His blood is still trickling down the floor

I can't feel the fire within you

Neither can I feel the winter blues

You lie dead awake in a picture frame

Your body lay scattered in the butchers lane

You rose up but I brought you down again

Cause you never returned the kiss I gave you

In the coldness of the night

I see the ghosts pass me by

They say it will rain very soon

Can't wait to be drained out of you

Your desperate cries rings within

Your hurt expression makes me feel

I think I should put on the painted mask

And cry Casanova please return

Coward

The pills they stopped reacting

The thirst that never quenched

The faces they started changing

But darkness remained the same

How on earth I lived so long

Should have departed

Before things went wrong

Should have flown high

Might have reached you in time

But since I am stuck here

My wings fail to fly

Meaningless it seems

To live to die or to claim

What has never been mine

Within the clouds I would have been

I know you are there all alone

But is it me that you seek

Or is it tears that you want to shed alone

Coward the one who flies away they say

Doesn't matter what they say I will leave today

To meet the coward and be one myself

Special Friend

I fell in love with a stranger once again

I was smitten by her but i knew she was vain

Now I don't love her we call ourself friends

Sitting together lonely by the bay

I met another girl last night

Her eyes were wild and sweet was her touch

We had some drink together and ended up at her place

But I ran to get back to that very special friend

I feel so disillusioned

With the wild eyes and the wicked smiles

Hold me dear they might disappear

And tell me that you are there

Always and forever be

That special friend waiting by the bay

Then came another and another

Each one made my heart grow weaker

And no matter how I try to run and take a hike

They come back with vengeance on their mind

I got disillusioned

By the wild eyes and the wicked smiles

Hold me dear I want them to disappear

And tell me that you are there

Always and forever be

That special friend alone by the bay

Different Emotions

angry and mad i sit alone

on a desert land near a shore

trickles down the rain

or is it my blood that flows

wind blows me away

or is it you trying to take my place

 

it was joy when you loved me

it was pain when you left me

it was death when you came back to me

i was lost when you left again

 

i try to bite and crawl

to reach my unknown destination

i fight and laugh with bitter tears

and hide them for your sake

loved someone and everyone

but i seem to scare them away

 

it was joy when you loved me

it was pain when you left me

it was death when you came back to me

i was lost when you left again

 

why don’t i feel the tears of rejection

instead angry i am with my own reflection

they came and went by themselves

but my mind still plays its spiteful games

none can hold me close for i don’t let them

none can see me cry for i don’t shed them anymore